Clarification (Warning, You May Not Want to Read This)

So, I put up the last blog looking specifically for people to comment on it. I have no good reason why I did it, but over the past few days that people have left comments, I have found a few good reasons for it.

Austin made the comment that says, "trying to mirror things in your life to things like M&M's, Ozzy, and Van Halen will just drive you insane." Now, my question to Austin is this, Where in that entry did I say I wanted to be like this? If you read the title it says, "Facts/Beliefs". Now the way I was taught, when you use a slash(/), that means and-or. I am not reflecting my life to be like these things. I was simply stating a fact that not many people know. Trust me Austin, I'm doing better than you may think. Sorry if I have upset you.

Heather, I love you like a sister. One little secret that I meant to put on the last blog was that I love it when my sisters comment on my blogs. That tells me that they care about me, that they want me to do better. But now, it's time for some sibling rivalry, not really, I just want to comment on your comment. One thing that no one has asked me is, why do I care if people actually comment on theses things? Well, even though no one asked, I will tell. I write these blogs more as a journal style of writing. I want to look back on these years from now, or even months, and see how I was in the past. If I was miserable, I want to see how miserable I was. I know people say that you are supposed to bury the past, but the past is what got us to the point we are at today. I want to look back and see how I got to the point I am at. As for the comments, I want people to comment so I can see how much your opinions have changed me. And, if any of you have ever looked back on any of my past blogs, you would see that I value others opinions and beliefs. Even though I don't agree with all of the comments you give me, I still consider them. I believe that you must hear all sides of a belief, to know truly what you believe.

p.s - Heather, I blows my mind how you have managed to curse and then talk about God in the same sentence. Sorry, I just had to break the awkwardness.lol Love you!!!


Since I'm on a rant about blogs, since when were there rules set in stone about what you could and couldn't do on a blog? I hear people say that the purpose of blogging is about therapy or inspiration or love. But, isn't the purpose of a blog up to the blogger? I feel as if many people on the comments were telling me that I couldn't have a blog that just asked a question, or that listed my beliefs, or some random facts. So I apologize if I've offended anyone who thinks you shouldn't ask an opinion.

And what happened to the other facts or beliefs that I had on there? I thank those of you who understood the randomness of the blog, as well as the seriousness. Thank you Hollywood for agreeing with my love of Classic Rock, you are a true friend. And let me ask you all something. Did anyone ever look at this little quote,
"In any list of facts, you have to have an obvious fact thrown in somewhere, just so you can lecture people later to see if they read everything or not. It is a good way to point out liars. You can just ramble on about absolutely nothing, then ask later if they read it. When they say something totally different than what you say you could grill them about it. But I'd advise you not to do that, because they could be testing you as well."
That is word for word, unchanged people. Now, truthfully, how many people actually read that?

Ok, back to your comments. Whoever 'Gunit505' is, please tell me if you are someone I know or not. I have a few personal issues with you. By personal issues I mean I am going to teach you how to spell better.lol But seriously, refer to parts earlier in this blog about my intentions. And let me ask you something. Why did you pick this time to comment on a blog? Why did you leave your comment under a name I would not know? And why do you do this, without previously Reading my other entries?

Raymond, don't forget to comment on my blog. You always tell me to remind you, so there ya go.

And now, for the stressful part of this entry. 'Your Sister', You have said many things in your comment that will help me change. You always have a way of making me look at what I am, and what I am becoming. You are right on one thing, I do think I have some sort of mental issue that I need counseling for. I publicly admit that I have some issues that need to be worked out. I sat in a church today, and through the service, I just couldn't get into it like I used to. I don't know if it was the lack of Spirit around me, or the lack of Spirit in me. But I sat in that pew with a sad face. But when the invitation came around, I saw the youth group of the church go to the altar. I only saw the youth, I looked around and saw the people of the church with smirks on there faces. I smiled when I saw the youth, but I nearly left when I saw the rest of the congregation. So there is hope for me yet, just as there is hope for the church. Whether it be the adults of the church of today or tomorrow, there is hope. But, I love you 'Your Sister'. Just keep me in your prayers. I will get better over time mentally, and spiritually, and I'm glad to know I have friends and family on my side.

Ok, since I haven't put this in in a while, I will now. I apologize to you if anything in this blog has offended you. Just remember that this is all my opinions. I write this down with a base intention, but as I start writing, my heart takes over my thoughts, and I begin to write what I feel is right at the time. But, just keep in mind that these are my opinions, and I would love to hear yours. Because, come on, we need opinions. God gave them to us to keep up conversations and whatnot. I love you all, thank you for reading.