A Religious Exert

So, I have realized that I have not posted anything religious on here. My mom sent me an email of the Wednesday, January 23 edition of Today's Turning Point, with David Jeremiah. I feel compelled to share this with you. Please just look at the poem and take it to heart.



The Ten Commandments


He declared to you His covenant which He commanded you to perform, the Ten Commandments; and He wrote them on two tablets of stone.
Deuteronomy 4:13

Recommended Reading Exodus 20:1-17

In the Ten Commandments, the infinite character and holy requirements of God are reduced and recorded for our welfare. They're the foundation of ethics, and obeying them is the secret of happiness. So eternally true yet so simple! An old English verse states them like this:

Above all else love God alone;
Bow down to neither wood nor stone.
God's name refuse to take in vain;
The Sabbath rest with care maintain.
Respect your parents all your days;
Hold sacred human life always.
Be loyal to your chosen mate;
Steal nothing, neither small nor great.
Report, with truth, your neighbor's deed;
And rid your mind of selfish greed. —McGuffey Reader

These are rules, not to hinder our happiness, but to teach us how to live our lives to the fullest.
Read His instructions with great care and you will see behind the initial "no" an eternal "yes."
Stephen V. Rexroat

Clarification (Warning, You May Not Want to Read This)

So, I put up the last blog looking specifically for people to comment on it. I have no good reason why I did it, but over the past few days that people have left comments, I have found a few good reasons for it.

Austin made the comment that says, "trying to mirror things in your life to things like M&M's, Ozzy, and Van Halen will just drive you insane." Now, my question to Austin is this, Where in that entry did I say I wanted to be like this? If you read the title it says, "Facts/Beliefs". Now the way I was taught, when you use a slash(/), that means and-or. I am not reflecting my life to be like these things. I was simply stating a fact that not many people know. Trust me Austin, I'm doing better than you may think. Sorry if I have upset you.

Heather, I love you like a sister. One little secret that I meant to put on the last blog was that I love it when my sisters comment on my blogs. That tells me that they care about me, that they want me to do better. But now, it's time for some sibling rivalry, not really, I just want to comment on your comment. One thing that no one has asked me is, why do I care if people actually comment on theses things? Well, even though no one asked, I will tell. I write these blogs more as a journal style of writing. I want to look back on these years from now, or even months, and see how I was in the past. If I was miserable, I want to see how miserable I was. I know people say that you are supposed to bury the past, but the past is what got us to the point we are at today. I want to look back and see how I got to the point I am at. As for the comments, I want people to comment so I can see how much your opinions have changed me. And, if any of you have ever looked back on any of my past blogs, you would see that I value others opinions and beliefs. Even though I don't agree with all of the comments you give me, I still consider them. I believe that you must hear all sides of a belief, to know truly what you believe.

p.s - Heather, I blows my mind how you have managed to curse and then talk about God in the same sentence. Sorry, I just had to break the awkwardness.lol Love you!!!


Since I'm on a rant about blogs, since when were there rules set in stone about what you could and couldn't do on a blog? I hear people say that the purpose of blogging is about therapy or inspiration or love. But, isn't the purpose of a blog up to the blogger? I feel as if many people on the comments were telling me that I couldn't have a blog that just asked a question, or that listed my beliefs, or some random facts. So I apologize if I've offended anyone who thinks you shouldn't ask an opinion.

And what happened to the other facts or beliefs that I had on there? I thank those of you who understood the randomness of the blog, as well as the seriousness. Thank you Hollywood for agreeing with my love of Classic Rock, you are a true friend. And let me ask you all something. Did anyone ever look at this little quote,
"In any list of facts, you have to have an obvious fact thrown in somewhere, just so you can lecture people later to see if they read everything or not. It is a good way to point out liars. You can just ramble on about absolutely nothing, then ask later if they read it. When they say something totally different than what you say you could grill them about it. But I'd advise you not to do that, because they could be testing you as well."
That is word for word, unchanged people. Now, truthfully, how many people actually read that?

Ok, back to your comments. Whoever 'Gunit505' is, please tell me if you are someone I know or not. I have a few personal issues with you. By personal issues I mean I am going to teach you how to spell better.lol But seriously, refer to parts earlier in this blog about my intentions. And let me ask you something. Why did you pick this time to comment on a blog? Why did you leave your comment under a name I would not know? And why do you do this, without previously Reading my other entries?

Raymond, don't forget to comment on my blog. You always tell me to remind you, so there ya go.

And now, for the stressful part of this entry. 'Your Sister', You have said many things in your comment that will help me change. You always have a way of making me look at what I am, and what I am becoming. You are right on one thing, I do think I have some sort of mental issue that I need counseling for. I publicly admit that I have some issues that need to be worked out. I sat in a church today, and through the service, I just couldn't get into it like I used to. I don't know if it was the lack of Spirit around me, or the lack of Spirit in me. But I sat in that pew with a sad face. But when the invitation came around, I saw the youth group of the church go to the altar. I only saw the youth, I looked around and saw the people of the church with smirks on there faces. I smiled when I saw the youth, but I nearly left when I saw the rest of the congregation. So there is hope for me yet, just as there is hope for the church. Whether it be the adults of the church of today or tomorrow, there is hope. But, I love you 'Your Sister'. Just keep me in your prayers. I will get better over time mentally, and spiritually, and I'm glad to know I have friends and family on my side.

Ok, since I haven't put this in in a while, I will now. I apologize to you if anything in this blog has offended you. Just remember that this is all my opinions. I write this down with a base intention, but as I start writing, my heart takes over my thoughts, and I begin to write what I feel is right at the time. But, just keep in mind that these are my opinions, and I would love to hear yours. Because, come on, we need opinions. God gave them to us to keep up conversations and whatnot. I love you all, thank you for reading.

A Few Facts/Beliefs from a Pessimist, a Cynic, and a Narcisist

First off, the point of this is to see how many comments I will receive for this entry. This actually leads into the first fact.

It is a fact that people have not yet commented on my last blog entry that was written on the 10th of this month, but people commented on the one before it once I put it out. It is also fact that right after a few of my friends wrote a blog entry of their own, they received at least 4 comments within a few hours of it being posted.

It is a fact that last year, after I wrote a poem named "The Devil's Triumph", I was unheard from on these blogs for 5 months, and yet people still did not comment on my poem, wishing me luck through the obvious hard time I was going through.

It is true that I am like this as well, but I try to be there for people no matter what.

Since I have came to college, I have either jumped, or helped jump more cars than I ever can remember doing before.

In my blog titled "My 9 Days", I referred to a brandy glass full of M&MS, but with no brown pieces. This is from the movie Wayne's World 2, which told a story of Ozzy Osbourne saying he refused to go on stage unless he had a brandy glass full of brown M&MS. Deeper into that is an urban legend about Van Halen. When they played a show, they always brought heavy equipment. So when they sent a list of demands which also stated the weight of the equipment, they through in the clause stating that there were to be no brown M&MS in the backstage area. At one of the shows, the people didn't bother to read the contract, so the stage fell through and David Le Roth discovered brown M&MS in the back, leading to the destruction of the backstage area.

It is true that I see the glass as half-empty, just like a pessimist. But, I go even further to state that the glass is half-empty when the liquid has been let out. When liquid is added to a glass, but filled to the halfway mark, it is half-full. But, if a person doesn't know which is the true facet of this riddle, I view the glass as half-empty.

I love Classic Rock.

In any list of facts, you have to have an obvious fact thrown in somewhere, just so you can lecture people later to see if they read everything or not. It is a good way to point out liars. You can just ramble on about absolutely nothing, then ask later if they read it. When they say something totally different than what you say you could grill them about it. But I'd advise you not to do that, because they could be testing you as well.

I believe it is easier for me to get people to tell me personal things about themselves in college than it was in high school.

I'm not sure if I'm getting smarter, or the world is getting even more stupid than it was.

I have accepted that I can't spell, and my grammar is horrible.

I love my new camcorder, but I haven't used it quite as much as I wanted to.

I watch way to many bad movies.

I also like country music, and my favorite country song, right now, is You Don't Even Call Me By My Name - David Allen Coe

I am still bitter after my "relationship" with Bethany

I have no idea what kind of person I am turning into, but I know I need more of God in my life.

I love my 3 nieces and my nephew.

I have an Anatolian Shepherd, a dog, named Streak. He is a wild thing and I love him. But my dream dog is an Alaskan Husky. I want to raise one from a puppy.

I have no idea where I will end up after college. I know I will be a youth minister somewhere. I am unsure of how I will get to church when I am a youth minister. I don't know how I will be able to do my internship when that comes around. I don't know how I will support my family. I don't know if I will even have a family.

I shouldn't be at college right now. The only reason I am here right now is because of one man, Mr. Underwood. He saved my butt, and I could never repay him. I still need to treat him to dinner sometime.

I don't listen to half of what people say when I'm watching TV or playing on the computer.

I started this blog 50+ minutes ago, and so far one person has commented on my last blog, for fear that I will go on a rampage that nobody comments on my blogs.

Sometimes on MSN or AIM, I like to put a crazy remark on a chat session with one of my friends, and then I say, "Whoops, nevermind. Wrong Convo." Just now I really did put something in the wrong conversation.

I think that people don't like to comment on my blogs, because they are to long and they don't feel like reading them.

I am paranoid, and I constantly think that people are talking about me behind my back.

Well, that's enough for now. I have more of these, but I'll put them on some other time. Thanks for reading, and don't forget to comment.

A New Year, A New Beginning

Well, another year started back at old OCU. This year is different than last year in some ways, but in other ways it is still just horrible. One good thing about this year is that I am coming into it with many new friends, and even though I know I will lose some at the end of the semester, I will still have a lot. That is, if my friends get there butts in gear. But, I rung in the new year at home with my friend Mario, then, later that week, I went to my high school friend's wedding. Then I came back to school, and even though I don't really like many of my classes, I am still striving to attend them and make good grades.

One of the worst parts of this new year is the loss of my good friend James. He and his wife bought a house 40 minutes away from here, so I feel as if I have lost my confidante. He is a really great friend, and I truly miss him dearly. Wow, I just realized something. Last year around this time is when Jeremy and Karen moved away, and now I lost James and Beth. And of course, last year at this time is when James and Beth got married. This year, my high school buddy, as well as my friend from youth, got married on the same day. It will be interesting to see what the new year will bring, but more interesting than that is what next year will start with.

And I suppose I should state what my New Years resolution is. As I said last year, my resolution was to gain more confidence in myself and get a girl. Well, if you read my last blog, you will see I had my 9 days of fulfillment, but I don't think I really gained a lot of confidence. I'm not sure why I think that, but I just feel as if I could improve. I'm not sure what my new resolution will be. I suppose I will make it to grow closer to God again. I openly admit my backsliding. Over the past years I have given up hope in God, lusted, basically did everything the Bible says is wrong. But, I will change all of that this year, and I will make the resolution for the rest of my years to continue this path. Since I have "dated" Bethany, I feel as if I have improved myself a little. It only took 9 days for God to show me how happy I can be. I see that the happiness I felt with her is only a small fraction of the happiness and love that God gives me.

I would Like to end this by saying thank you to God for my pain, my pleasure, my sadness, my happiness, my anger, my mellowness, my deceit, my deception, my enemies, my friends, my family, and all of my experiences. God put us on this earth, not only to worship Him, but to enjoy the life that He has given us. We are to enjoy the depressions as much as the happiness. I have experienced much of life already, and I know I have much more to go through. But, I will keep in God, and trust Him with my life.