Empty aggression and rage looms,
I don't see anything.
I will go blind,
Yet I find myself accepting it.
I get angry with the passing of a car,
But find serenity in my mind.
Serenity turns to rage,
I am down-trodden,
Defeated,
Unloved.
Then I go back to my childhood,
Careless,
No rage,
No need for remorse.
I hide myself in my actions,
And obliterate myself in the same way.
I have no future,
It's not time yet.
I love her,
But I can't have a chance.
So I blame the concept of love in marriage,
When it's my own faults that drive me.
Yet I don't listen to myself,
Not even now in this form.
I turn to the world.
The fat get fatter,
The rich get richer,
The poor don't matter,
This is me.
A moment of release is found,
Temporary bliss.
I turn to fear,
I turn away from God.
I turn to my worldly needs.
I am a fool.
Conformity seems so nice right now,
But in my own time I am different.
I say that but it's a lie.
I don't change,
I only forget.
I cast away the ones I love,
My anger and jealousy overwhelm me.
How can I keep going with this career?
I will not give up.
I call for help,
I sleep through the ones trying to accept that call.
Help me...
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