Long Weekend, In More Ways Than One

Plenty of things to hammer out on this blog, so lets get into it shall we?

First off, I must be the worst roommate ever. I have had a different roommate every semester that I have been to college. This semester is unique in the fact that my roomie just dropped out halfway through the semester. So I came to the realization that since neither of my spring semester roommates were really there, maybe I should just save myself the pity and just get a single room from now on. I mean, come on, why can I not keep a roommate? It's not like I strip naked and do dances in front of them. But, oh well, I had a great time with my roommate last semester and this one, and I will miss him. I will miss him because now I have to rearrange the room by myself, and he was the person who would take me places at 1 in the morning. I guess I need some more night owl friends.

I didn't get to go home this weekend like I had planned, but it's all good because my parents came up and saw me. The only reason I didn't like it this way was because I didn't get to see my sisters or my nieces and nephew. I was practically in tears listening to their sad voices say, "I miss you Uncle Rick. When are you gonna come home?" There really is nothing like the innocence of a child. I love my nieces and my nephew. Another bad thing about being up at college all the time is the fact that I miss when they start to crawl and walk. Two weeks after I came back up to college, I called my parents and they said that my nephew will now crawl over to a chair or something, stand up, and walk around holding on to it. I think I cried when I heard that because I wasn't there to see it, and his father was working in Colorado at the time, so he didn't get to watch it for the first time either. But, if all goes according to plan, I'll get to go home at least once this semester next month. I'm going to try and get down there on the 19th of March, and I will be there for a week and a half basically.

But, as I said my parents came to visit me. They came up here on Saturday morning and left Sunday afternoon. I was glad to see them again. We went shopping, we ate, and they stayed the night in Princeton. On Sunday morning we went to church at the church I usually go to up here. I brought them thinking my friend Cara would be there, cause we've been hanging out a lot lately, and she wanted to meet my parents. When I got there, I was told that she was stranded in Evansville with her Grandparents. The roads were slick on Friday and she wanted to go see her aunt there who was visiting, so her uncle came and got her so she didn't have to brave the slick roads herself. But me being the horrible friend I am didn't bother to call her and tell her I stayed in Oakland, so she tried to get a ride back to meet up with me and my parents, but couldn't. So after church me and my parents were going out to eat, and her parents decided that they would pick her up and join us. So we ate lunch together, and it was awkward at first, but I smoothed out.

One thing that happened today that I found hilarious was when I was at church, I went to Sunday school. My parents came later for church and I was going to meet them. So I was going into the sanctuary and I met the pastor along the way. He told me that my parents were already in the sanctuary and he was glad they came. So I walked away going into the sanctuary, and as I turned from him he said to me, "I'm sorry your girlfriend stood you up." I was shocked at this statement because we're not really going out. But I'm glad someone finally told me that we were. I talked to Cara about it and it seems as though many people at her church think we're dating.

But, that's it for now. If I remember anything later I'll tell ya. Comment if you like, you should know the rest of my ramble by now, the whole my opinions and your opinions stuff.

ps - YAY!!! Spellcheck is working!

pps - I didn't realize that I had spellcheck the whole time on my Google toolbar. ;(

My Eden

In the beginning, Adam and Eve were in a wonderful place. This was before sin, before feelings, before all of us. I've been thinking about Eden lately. I know that there is no place like the original Eden, at least until you get to Heaven. So I've been thinking about a place that is "as good as it gets". My Eden would be a nice beachside spot, with plenty of palm trees, a crystal clear ocean. It would be warm with not much humidity. I would be there alone except for the one girl that makes me happy. I would have an IBC Root Beer and my laptop, for entertainment. My nieces and nephew would have to be there, just for the extra peace of a child. I would just sit, lounge, and watch the paradise move by. There would be rain, but not that often, maybe 2-3 times a week. I would have a way to get to civilization, just for socialization purposes, but no one could get in unless I allowed it. I would live in a lovly house, that me and my dad built. It would have a stone walkway, marble counters, a master bed and bath, and a couple extra rooms, and 1 1/2 more baths. The living room would be large, with a nice tv, not many channels, just the ones I like. It would have an amazing view of the ocean, so I can enjoy the ocean side, and the rain, and the wildlife whenever I want. The skies would be mostly clear, but at times with many beautiful clouds. The sunset would be like that of a painting. The seagulls would roam the beach all the time and I would occasionally collect their feathers for decoration. This would be a rough draft of my Eden.

Please, tell me your description of YOUR Eden. I don't care if you say anything of mine. Just remember, Eden isn't as far as you may think. Just think about it. It is there, just grasp it.

By the way, when you comment, please don't make it a religious debate or anything stupid (such comments will be deleted). This is simply food for thought and contemplation.

The Beast Within

I decided that I wanted to write a new blog, but I didn't know what I wanted to say. So I just started writting, and the following poem/story came out. Enjoy, and spread the word.



The Beast Within

His eyes are glowing red
He has an oversized head
The beast feeds on pain
And comes in the rain
If you're covered with sin
Then its feast begins
On a sinner plagued with grief
The beast again feasts
Never overcome with remorse
Never growing hoarse
The beast just roams
And enters the homes
Of a people at play
With sex, drugs, and things far away
From a perfect Christian life
But it's perfect, in the worlds sight
Of a person with great strife
The beast takes delight
And never knowing a fact
The church does not act
The beast helps the child
Who was once so weak and mild
He makes him stronger for HIS will
And teachs him to KILL
Oh the pain he will cause
Just because of the flaws
But still his family grieves
When even they themselves, would not belive
No one tried to help
They just stepped aside, and let the beast overwhelm
Now there's another soul in hell
Another tale, that a child, won't live to tell
Because the beast then takes the friends
Saying the fault lies with them
As the dust settles on one
Another is formed to run
And the torch that was lit
Never burns out, it never quits
And the beast that has always lived
Lives forever, within the sins
The sins of its victims who fell so simply
To the beast's advice, and to his sympathy
Now all that was, is dead for no reason
Not another day, not another season
Why oh why did no one listen?
Why did they not see, the inner-beast glisten?
Why is the world so much like hell?
Why do we listen to the dark beast's yell?
It's because we have given up all that is true
The ones that truly love, are now very few
And the ones that say, that they will never grow old
Are dust in the wind, and their story is never told.
Amen

These Feelings of Mine

I've had a variation of feelings lately, and I hate some of them, while I love the others. I feel as if I am losing my friends right now. There has been a lot of drama in the inner circle I was hanging out with, so I distanced myself from it. But even before then they never invited me to anything, they never wanted me to go along, or they just assumed I already knew what they were doing. It really upset me when they did this, that is why I didn't feel bad when I left them. Don't get me wrong, I am still "friends" with them, but whether I like it or not, and whether they know it or not, our friendship will never be the same.

I feel like I am losing one of my better friends, my roommate. He has been out of it latly talking to this girl he met online. It seems lately there has been this tension between us thatcould easily be solved with us talking about it, but neither us us will start the conversation. It's just the fact that I've seen stuff like this happen before, or a variation of it. My brother was once close to a girl over the internet and he decided to go live with her. It was very hard for me sitting at that bus stop waving goodbye to him, but he was just so happy. A week later he called and said he wanted to come back home because once he got there, the girl never hung out with him or talked to him. I cried when I heard this for 2 reasons. One was because I was so happy he was coming home, and the second reason was because I knew he was sad. I couldn't stand to see him crushed. But when he got home, he just smiled at me and gave me a hug. He was just happy to be home. I supose whenever I see my roommate talking to this girls for hours on end, I just see my brother, and I see myself just sitting there crying. But, I guess it all relates back to a song. All we are is dust in the wind, and I just hate change.

I feel as if I have been losing my mind lately. I see all of the things I have talked about happening, and I can't help but be sad about it. I just wish that time would stand still sometimes, just so I could sit back and accept the change. But I will continue to look to God. I know that the only reason I am here to experience all the change is because of Him.

One more feeling I was not sure if I wanted to put on here is my feeling of love for this one person. I pretty much just met them a few weeks ago, but it seems I am closer to them than to anyone else right now. And the sad part is that we've only physically met a handful of times. I'm not sure what I want of this right now, or why I even posted this, but I just want you to know that you are a great friend, and I value the time we have spent together.

So, there ya go. I'm sure I'll post some more blogs soon, but that's enough for now.


p.s - I currently cannot check my spelling for some reason, so I apologize for the errors I may have mad in the recent blogs.

Roll On

I just recently listened to the new Kid Rock album, and I love it. It has a lot of his old style of music, along with many new styles. I have already found a favorite song off the album. The name of it, for all you illegal downloading junkies, is Roll On. It is about the metamorphasis of life. One particular line in it is when he states, "And I swear that times a trick, it disappears and oh so quick, man I was just sixteen and now I'm staring at thirty-six." It is amazing how true this can be. It seems like just yesterday I was just getting my drivers permit and now I am running rampant all over. Just think about how time is always flying by. You will realize that there is not as much time on earth as you once thought.

Good Day

Today was a pretty good day, so good that I didn't want this morning to end. I went to church this morning, and I felt the Spirit moving in the church I went to, more than I felt in the one I went to last week. Last week, I felt Him moving in the youth of the church, but this week I felt Him in the congregation. I saw and heard those go to the altar to pray, I felt God in my worship, and I saw Him in the preaching. This was not the first time I went to this church, and won't be the last either, but I went a year ago, and I didn't feel anything in the service. I went this morning and noticed a difference. The sad thing is that the first time I came to this church; I loved it because it reminded me of my home church, and it still does.

Well, I was invited to church by this one girl I have been talking with a lot lately. She is a great friend, and I'm glad to say I've got to know her more today. After church we went to Princeton to eat. I then spent a lot of tonight talking to her, and her sister, on MSN. Well, that's all I really want to say about that right now. I would appreciate if you all, who would possibly comment on here, to keep this paragraph out of your comment out of respect for her. I don't know her well enough to let my friends and family pick her apart like you do. Maybe later Heather.lol

But the topper on this day was the Super Bowl. The New York Giants stomped the Patriots. The only bad part about it was that they didn't break Tom Brady's leg. Maybe next year huh? But I just love the fact that the history books will read, "2007-08 New England Patriots, 18-1 *They lost the Super Bowl to the New York Giants." Don't ya just love asterisks? Just ask Barry Bonds how he feels about em.lol So it was a good day.

It really put my mind to ease on a lot of things. Until next time just remember, these are all my opinions. I simply put them out for you to consider, and I am anxious to hear your opinions as well.